Today I am mentally exhausted.  I have been waking up at odd hours of the early morning and most times I just toss and turn until I fall back to sleep.

This morning the energy felt very different.

I first woke up at 3:00 a.m.  It’s been dismal weather for weeks, and if you live near a shore you know what I mean when I say that everything feels wet.  The couches, the mattresses, boxes of cereal, your clothes – all wet.  The air is heavy with humidity and dampness that now seems to be felt deep within the bones.  I tried reading, but the table lamp just seemed too bright, so I opted to lie in the dark and contemplate why I was waking up at the same time most mornings.

At 4:00 a.m. I heard a soft female voice in my right ear say, get up, get up and look out your window! I crawled awkwardly over a mini-hill of books at the bottom of my bed and peered out through the screened window.  It was barely dawn, the birds hadn’t started their morning conversations.  As my eyes began to adjust to the layers of darkness, I could see into the woods and my fire circle pit.  There was something stirring, something that I could barely perceive.  Then I waited and saw her.  A graceful doe edging herself cautiously out from the canopy of the trees and into full sight.  I saw the glow from her light brown coat and the whiteness of her hind legs.  It was mesmerizing to watch her silent footfalls.

I sat at the bottom of my bed for a full hour listening to the silence of the woods, the stillness of the air, and felt healed within my heart.  One exception of sound from a boasting frog was the only interruption.

Like a morning prayer I was silently grateful for acting on the spoken suggestion.  It was a gift of deer medicine.  Deer teach us to be gentle, forgiving and to use our intuition.  They come out of the shadows and into the ethereal light sensing they are safe and unthreatened.  A physical reminder that they remain as a majestic totem and guardian  for anyone who heeds their announcement.

Tags: air heavy with humidity, dawn, deer, deer medicine, forgive, gentle healing, use intuition